thanks for all the concern am so much better now... the day was actually very good!! :)

i was obviously tired when the day started... haha, finished my Bio S at 2am... gosh, thank goodness the week is over and i can catch up on slp. no training tmr, so can wake up later... :) anyways, lessons were fine, dunno why, the lack of slp didn't affect me so much, and i was inexplicably in high spirits. not tt i minded... haha. then lunch... wow, i finally got to go to Biopolis. lunch was just dope... the place has nice couches and stuff, the food, each stall is a franchise of a famous one, so the food's all great. i bought this seafood noodle thing, chocolate rotti prata, and desert. the desert stall here is fab, they give so much more stuff for the same price as the ghim moh one, and u get to eat in the nice place!! :D for the record, there's katong laksa, the famous prata stall, this really great hk food stall... and quite a few more.

i saw the herbal chicken, the mei chai kou rou and i was just drooling man... must go again... anyway, the whole biopolis looks promising... maybe i'll be doing work here next time... ;)

after tt, i decided to dismiss myself cuz i was too full and happy to go for bio pract... think i might get into trouble... :S i asked aaron to see if inge wanted to check blue slip, he replied when i was in the midst of taking a blue slip. then i told the admin staff, no need already. then she asked me why, and i just smiled, then she shook her head at me... haha. then i went off and aaron told me inge took down names and wanted to check cuz only 13 pple turned up for pract. oops...

whatever. after tt was a mad rush to finish our presentation... but mad props for everyone, we pulled it off... it was not bad... it was something with depth and breadth... :) except it took way too long... we took longer than the other 2 grps combined... and we hadn't even finished covering everything... haha...

we ended so so late... and was trying to decide whether to take a lift home from nick cuz he was in a rush for dinner, then yihan asked him out for dinner. i didn't think twice... :) thanks for the lift anyway... hurhur... had so much fun... hadn't really talked to him for quite some time, and today just reminded me just why we are v close friends... can just talk about everything, and i've lotsa fun with him! thanks for the enjoyable nite... its been a while since i had a nice dinner/walk at orchard... :)

past few days have been dreadful... lack of sleep is killing me... fell sick for 2 days, thank god i'm better now.
nothing really interesting has happened now tt i think of it... perharps the only nice thing was winning quite a few matches yesterday while fencing. new found patience is paying off...

today, jiao liao has the same old things to say about me... haha k.

anyway, things aren't excatly going very well. u asked y i was unhappy... told u in the end. yet once again, things happen and i'm affected once again. whatever's the point in me saying anything? haha... i guess i've just been kidding myself all along. as if any good would come out of it.

hey, finally get a little time to blog again after so much time rushing round... let's see... friday was great... bio S cancelled and Dance Night. cool!! :) was strange to have our usual group of 6 reduced to 2... but i dun really mind, its easier to talk about some stuff... ;) oh oh, dance nite was really good... had dinner w emily, nick and zee... saw ms chia... and as usual, her facial expressions are so... unique. crystal jade is so nice... am getting addicted!! :) anyway, at the dance nite... was damn funny to here emily trying to attract mikail's attention as usual... :P and our dear star- aaron had to arrive fashionably late cuz he was doing his make-up. at first i reserved good seats for him, but when michelle, jerald... and their friend i mistook as jerald's gf (much to their offence) said hi, and told me to move over to them, i decided it was easier to move the non-present aaron away. hah.

the dances were quite entertaining... the chinese dances though, they're out of place man... breaks the rhythm... after a while, whenever chinese was read out, everyone laughed. oh oh, there were these really bimbotic girls behind us, talking lotsa nonsense behind us... they were so retarded, it was hard not to find them funny. gosh... and hide and hudson woahed us with their superb skills when they took the stage. it was just whack! other than tt, i like the finale and the color dance quite a lot too... :) the first dance was quite cool too... :P

anyway, after the dance was a hectic photo taking session which resulted in many many pictures... though i can't seem to find many... ;) dunno whose cam they are in. haha... nvm, shall ask round. when we finally left the cultural center, it was quite late... then at raffles area, nick's dad asked him to go fullerton. so i decided to be his guide there... ended up spending half an hour walking to one fullerton... and got treated to Baker's Inn by nick's family!! Yummy... ate some Honey glazed Hazelnut and Ice Nougat. it was heavenly... wow... :)

unfortunately, reached home really late... like twelve thirty... haha. k, after packing and doing lotsa last miunte planning for the camp cuz i lost my papers... i went to bed at almost 2...

nect day, freaking early... got into our groups... got some J1s so unethu, i got so frustrated. ah well, so i just left them to their own devices for icebreakers... but when they were being a little overbaord, i got stricter, and things were easier. ah... PT for them... frisbee for us... we had so long for lunch after tt... haha... after tt, they had bonding games, and we were playing cards. damn slack. :P then games!!! 2.5 hours of frisbee/handball/basketball... hey, was damn fun, but got so tired. weili and i had a damn lot of trouble getting our asses to holland v. haha... ate at nydc though i was freaking broke. must be mad... haha. after tt, i was supposed to prepare the night walk route. i being so idealistic, didn't expect any problems cuz everything 'should' go according to plan. yes, but i SEVERELY underestimated the amount of string required to mark out the route. so there was just a frantic 2 hour raid of the school for string. thank goodness everyone was being damn helpful. think we searched every corner... but still, the council room is the best... :)

the darkness made it quite creepy at some parts... some of the j2s got scared laying down the route. haha... the night walk had varied levels of success at different parts of the routes. the first parts were quite good... but the later parts just weren't tt good cuz of some problems. amusing moments: 2 girls screamed so much, till residents made a police complaint, n we had to stop our night walk. thank the 2 girls, cuz the walk was talking way too long... :) those 2 ah... walk so so slow... screaming at everything. they got so scared while walking towards a corner, they'd slow down and sream before they reach the corner... whether anyone's there or not. tsk... tseyang made a guy scream - he groped tt guy's ass LOL.... Jason ROOOAAAAAAARRRED at many pple... nvm... LOL... but on the whole, it was quite fun...

then time to sleep no? no... played cards from 12-2+... talked to nick till 4... wanted to slp, but couldn't. mosquitoes were eating me. i had 10+ bites.... wth, and nick and weili had none??! i was just sucking all the mosquitoes. n u still have the cheek to laugh at me. tsk. quite tired no... haven't slept a wink yet... :S the initiation walk was damn fun... we made them walk through the deep deep drains from the council room, all the way to the bball court blind folded. trust me, u dun wanna walk in those drains. they had ice cubes down their shirts, pants and even underpants... in their face, ice water too! :P then flour, i threw so much in their faces it went into their mouths and noses... haha... rubbing it into their face is fun too! :) then there were lots of other things like feathers, grass, supersoaker, balloons... etc... it was dope touturing the J1s... and we really had a good time mistreating those with AP...

election time after tt... am glad to say the ex-co this year is excatly like what i would have chosen myself. though some of the results were darn close... it worked out fine. yay, can retire soon... phew... :)

rushed down to nick's sis' confirmation after tt. went late, no more seats and had to stand for damn long. zp n i were dying due to lack of energy to stand man. we saw her for like 1 min, and had to endure 1.5 hours of preaching. gosh... at least we gotta take some more pix after tt...

after tt, was chi's bday party. was damn fun... we had good food, and fun games... i filmed so many things down man. we made chi walk up this table while the other group of guys were talking, n he started humping the pole. wah... damn funny. then, we had the herbal essence on mak's hair - complete with sound effects!! oh, another one was something kai siang named the booby trap... LOL. chi pretended to attack this other guy, so the guy sitting next to him turned and look, and chi grabbed his head and rubbed it on his chest. k, quite gross... but damn funny cuz we weren't doing it la... anywyay, after tt... last part, we had him errr... pretend to do something to a table. let's just say the table has a hole on it. it was damn funny... he just lifted the table and yeah... ok, all these, he obviously didn't do voluntarily... they were forfeits devised mainly by mikail and me... ;)

oh n finally, when we had bday cake and stuff... we had a 'chi bang version'... was darn funny. haha

was a damn fun day man... gotta catch up with alec, ywee ern, mikail and some of the other guys i've not seen in ages... :) too bad no work had been done the whole weekend. oops.

been so busy... and the smoke hanging over me has yet to lift completely... at times it does, but most of the time its there.

yesterday, rushed off for lunch after school, and back again for fencing meeting. finally gotta settle most of the stuff, though there's still lots of things i need to get and the accounts - what a mess. haha... after tt, went over to support squash. it was quite fun... we won 3-2 and 3-2. was close for the guys though... was 2-2... luckily the last guy was superb... then watched a little of netball... ah, won easily with tt one. i didn't think the cheer we did after tt was appropriate though... new batch of concillors need more experience...

idol was great... :) jennifer and jasmine impressed. the rest were good, not exceptional... but the 2 guys... hmmm, they need to improve.

today... what a way to start the day. freaking boring/useless talk. the speaker was skirting round every issue... wth... he doesn't wanna talk about what we wanna know, giving cliche answers all the way... gave him really nasty comments. but well, serves him rite for boring me for 2 hours.

haiz... was feeling better after some sleep... but then, i dunno what's it with the atmosphere of some pple in class, it just brings me down. or maybe its just me... so was feeling quite crappy... and just did chem s during some parts of the lecture instead...

after school, talking to yx n cm made things better... hmmm, cm, recently talking to u just makes my mood better... maybe its the vibe u are giving? there's more life in u then like everyone else around me combined.... their mood just brings me down... so unlike yrs... :P

then during the a*star talk... hmmm, nvm, shalln't talk abt it. anyway, the talk was highly useful... and it was really interesting to know what pple do in research. i think i've had my mind set on taking this path... i wanna try to do something meaningful with my life for once. wasted 18 years... must redeem myself. the work they do is highly interesting... but the problem is, u've gotta study till PHD... might not be a bad thing actually...

finally, american idol today... shocker. i'm not amused tt jennifer got voted off... she's so good. and fan almost went off, tt's just unacceptable...

days pass by... and they all suck...

yesterday was napfa. was quite upset tt i got silver. i got a D for something i thot i had got a C for... so i just lost heart and the result is deproving in every single station after tt one from last year, or even just a few weeks ago. haha... ah well, tt's just tt then.

then, i've just been feeling stressed and sucky. work is piling up, and it doesn't help i can't do some of it... treasury is in a mess, and the freaking strict school admin just makes things so much harder for me. damn it. on top of tt, the lack of sleep just managed to put me in a really foul mood. went to bugis to buy chi's present, couldn't find any... ended up buying the Elton John Greatest hits CD for $29... and shortly after, yihan msges me to tell me tt he saw it for $23... ah well. was just complaining the whole journey... i pity nick's ears.

then today...still felt really sucky. what with everything around me... and strange behavior of some of the girls in my class. arghh, i can't be bothered anymore. and then more crappy lectures, what the hell was physics about??! go retire, u can't freaking teach. then after school, played tennis for a while w cm n yuan... then played bball w my class for PE. was having fun, n then, had to be chased off by another teacher. then returned to realised the tennis courts were occupied too. sighs... k, maybe i'm just complaining too much, but these things, really didn't make my day. k, but at least i played tennis well yesterday n today, n not bad for bball, considering how little i play.

after chem s, went to PS in an attempt to buy the present. so glad i finally got it, but it took so long to get there n look for it. and nick bought sx's present too... its good, considering i absolutely have no time left this week.

i just had a really great day... i think the happiest this year, right up there with my own birthday... :) thanks nick for having the celebration... really appreciated it... and thanks to everyone who went over and made it all so enjoyable... :P

had to wake up real early cuz peiying wanted nick and i to go down with her to watch the tabletennis finals... when i reached nick's house, he was still asleep... v good... ;) haha, went to cheung cheng, found the venue and went in... the atmosphere was really charged, tensed. i cheered for the wrong side once, and drew a hard stare from another rafflesian. and i said sorry, then he said thanks for coming... haha, that was what i needed to jolt me awake. k, was really embarrassing... haha... the first and third rubbers were won easily. 2nd one was real close, but we lost it in the end. the 4th one... was up and down see-saw match, and i'm glad tt we won it... :) yeah... so happy for them!! the players were generally very very nervous... even when they were winning comfortably... must be real hard out there.

anyway, went back to nick's place after tt, played halo... was fun... haha, though we chose too hard a level and it was tiring... :P hehe... after zp came, we ordered pizza for lunch, ate... and i actually went to play bball... haha... well, the weather sucked being so hot, but i got to try playing... wah, i really suck... k, shall try to learn to shoot better... i just can't do it when i'm far from the hoop, the balls dun go high enough. bah... but it was fun... :)

mikail then came over, and so did chi... we played german bridge, and it was fun!! mikail did a last minute catch up by scoring the highest score in 1 round in the game, but fell one pt short of me. phew... ;) haha... after tt, we played somemore and just played our own stuff after daryl came... :) nice to see all of them after so long... though i didn't really talk tt much to them, having fun with them was really great... always love to meet up with my old friends.

oh, mikail gave nick a very interesting shirt... at first me and nick couldn't understand, and tt might have explained why nick wore tt shirt without any qualms... haha... it had a dog humping a leg... nvm... too bad his classmates couldn't come to give his other interesting present... :P

k, then dinner... was amazing... everyone who could come was here... and we just ate the buffet tt was catered, and just joked a lot... it was damn funny, and a little crazy... haha, tried to get nick drunk, didn't succeed cuz he hardly drank, just turned so red. and darn, he was the bday boy and should be the one being saboed... but somehow i was the one being made to sing songs?? got voice recorded... grrrr.... hidden cameras caught me, and it looked quite stupid. was avoiding a camera from 1 side, then turned my head, and guess what was on the other side? another one ha. k... anyway, was amusing having to sing the Tao Nan school song... well, i mean i'd rather have sang something else... rite??! then yeah, damn smart, tried to sabo me further and make me lead nick's bday song. but tt one, didn't mind tt much... ;) as a reward, got offered lotsa cake... yay!! :P

oh, and after dinner, hearing nick's sister, cousins singing kary-okie (tt's how u MUST pronounce it)... was quite... hmmm... no words for it.

finally, my only complains were - man u lost. grrrrr.... crap man... major foul up. and my ct gave me bad reviews... told my parents my grades fell lots, and my class position fell. like its so easy to maintain last year's position. my grades didn't fall tt much what... just all my As last year turned to Bs, and Bs turned to A... haha. reversal? and he also commented on my sleeping habits. arghhh...

had a blast today... despite my disappointing PW results... haha...

day passed quite quickly... lunch was crazy, i ate so much (for my standards)... 2 piece chicken, large lemonade, coleslaw, mashed potato, coconut pie and fries... :P during bio pract... the girls decided to take glamour shots with the 'soft yellow lamp' there... using my phone. we took quite a lot of pix, and then my phone got taken... LOL... stupid inge...

bio S was kinda a waste of time... so sad... its just so typical... anyway, cm n i met each other after school for a while, and suddenly decided to play tennis at nite... such a sudden thing, but in the end we did... quite fun. rushed down after bio S... was so fun!! :) my forehand was generally very very good... hit so many winners... if not for it, i would never have been able to win tt match against yihan since backhand was weak...

other happy things included seeing john stevens, diana and JPL in the bottom 3... they are my least liked pple left... haha... and of course, anticipation for tmr... nick's bday celebrations... hmmm, i've had such a 'good' time thinking of what to get for him, and worse still, helping other pple thihnk of what to get for him... bah... :P i've managed to help them, but not myself... so sad rite? ;)

and lastly... i managed to find camile's track on the american idol cd... its called Until You Come Back to Me... its lovely... :)

At least some pple are taking my previous post in the right light... anyway, today was much better than last weeks AMI... :)

Rankings: Fantasia (wow!!), Latoya, Jennifer, John, Jasmine, George, Jon and Diana.

Gosh... Diana sucked so bad. she totally destroyed Celine's song. please, u can't sing celine's song, no way u can carry it off. think we can say good bye to her now... Jasmine and Jennifer will join her in the bottom 3. the guys are just too popular...

anyway, after tt performance, i'm starting to like fantasia after 2 weeks of not enjoying her. and... *shocks* jennifer is growing on me slowly... haha...

anyway, today was boring... *yawn*... oh but hey, had training today, was absolutely tiring... the coach just killed my legs. and he just kept telling how weak my legs were. so tired i fell asleep after i came home. anyway, u see, fencing coach is from china, and this really amusing thing happened. as he was correcting my position, he looked at my neck and saw something, he uttered slowly, X... Q??! in his chinese accent and laughed, asking me what tt was. yes, stupid mag vandalised my neck in red... and i had so many pple asking me who scratched me...

now i'm so screwed... i've got bio S to do. damn it, i wanted to finish watching the OC... boo...

haha, should make this quick cuz i gotta start on work soon... :P

so sad tt American Idol's postponed... thanks to stupid Bush. Now i'm sure he's not gonna win the elections... all the 30 million votes are going somewhere else now... ;)

training today was... I dunno. Didn't feel too good, and it was my first time fencing in more than a month!! I've been going for training, just not fencing. Well, but i think i did well... won 6 and lost 2 i think. So i just hope to build on it. but as usual, the coach only had critisms for me. he'd walk past and scold me... haha... interesting...

record breaking today was very sad. i think about 10% of the faculty turned up. shows how apathetic we are... ah well... it never fails to happen in any school... guess i should be used to it. but i kinda feel sorry for pam though...

anyway, i'm just shocked at the pple critisms pple throw at Camile. its just amusing. its like she's the worst singer in AI. well, i dun think she is. common critisms include - she can't sing. she's out of tune. she can't hold a note. her voice is too weak. haha... well, u know what, her style is R&B, and it just doesn't make sense for her to belting some of her songs at the top of her voice. its just not her style... u like tt kind of power voice, fine with me, but just cuz someone else does not sing like tt, it doesn't mean she can't sing... and haha, those pple with powerful voices, they've an advantage. they impress with their range, and though they might be off tune, its harder to spot, so u think its still good. a typical example is Circle of Life by Jennifer, it wasn't as good as everyone made it out to be... it was flat throughout if u listen closely. it just sounded so good cuz she impressed with her vocals, it just hid everything else. and let me just point out some weaknesses of the other 8 left just so u see, they aren't all so flawless...

Diana - she screams some of her songs. just listen to Do You Love Me.... she wasn't singing, she was screaming. and she tends to be quite pitchy too... listen to On a Broken Wing. Its painfully obvious. and her lame stage performance, where she hi-fived everyone. haha

John Stevens - can he even sing in tune?? Flat for one whole song, then the next week, sharp at the last part, and flat at the start??! its not even consistent. its just bad... its not a few notes, its a whole song...

Jennifer - she just oversings everything. this isn't opera, there's a mike. and she goes off-tune, its very slight, so its not very detectable unless u listen again - and turn down the volume

Jasmine - she's usually at least average. Inseperable was good... she screamed a few notes in Don't Let the Sun Go Down on Me, flat on a few phrases.

Latoya - she sounded impressive. but listen closely. for country week, she was so off. her timing was so so off. no one could tell cuz she was drowning out the music. k, then last week, at the front, she didn't sing very well for first half of the performance. yes she's impressive on the soaring notes, but the simple ones, she can't make it. and she squeaks sometimes... and it really sounds weird

George - he's good... :)

Fantasia - she screeches sometimes... and the yeah yeah yeah is becoming a chronic obsession.

JPL - i dunno what to say. his performances all have different weaknesses. it seems like he corrects something, and something else goes wrong.

oh yeah, i'm supporting george and jasmine now...

oooh, so late and i've got so much stuff to do... :S another late nite... and yeah, i'm tired... i think i've been starting a lot of my posts like tt. its just so sad... :(

lets see, fencing camp this week, yet i've not finished my proposal for my activity... brilliant. and it ain't gonna be scrapped cuz its been allocated so much time... arghh!! then i've physics, which i shall not care abt any more... :P

yesterday was quite relaxing... America's Next Top Model was just hilarious. What with Robin praying cuz she saw something she shouldn't see - Adrianne changing. WTH... its just hilarious with everything else tt drama mama did on the show.... :P Tennis was great, i was hitting so well, never hit so well in ages, so i was very very happy... and my coach was telling me about this very funny incident... :P

realised pple in the lifts have taken a liking to talking to me... strange. today, another one came, asked if i was stayed here (my house). i said, yeah... and he was like... u're kidding!! and u travel all the way to bishan? and i said, no, i'm at RJC... he said, you're kidding again very loudly... and seemed so shocked. then the door opened, and he went out. LOL... haha. wonder what would happen if he lived in pasir ris? LOL... ;)

oh, and walked round Bugis today... i really want the Elton John greatest hits CD... i think its really good. arghhh... too bad i dun really have enough $$ now... bah!! :'(

went back to the CIP place today - which explains the late nite. haha, was hoping my kid was there, but he wasn't. ah well, guess he doesn't wanna come back cuz he got kicked out. well, at least the coordinator (andrew) told me he still misses me, so tt's great... :)

am quite tired now... had a long long day...

went to watch The Passion of Christ... See, i bought the ticket already, and then, zee isn't 18... the guy checked our IDs... and was so annoying, not letting him in. so i said tt its only a few months, and he just replied, its a large difference. bullshit, i'm sure a few fricking months make u tt much more mature... i mean, we have had the same amount of education... tt's probably what matters. use yr head man... so poor zp didn't get to watch. to tell the truth, i was quite mad, and tt affected me when i was watching the show i guess...

the whole show, i was just struck by the brutality... and the other thought - how can one do this to a fellow person. what right do you have to abuse and torture someone like tt??! k, tt's one thing... another thing is, why is it tt so much blood is shed over religion, something tt advocates peace and non-violence?? it just defeats the purpose... if pple are going to use religion as a pretext for conflict, they might as well just not have any. u're not doing anyone good by killing innocent pple. and of course, the movie left me wondering a lot about many things... just confused me once again... nevermind, its nice to have things to think about... :) and though almost everyone who watched it said it was a very touching movie... somehow i wasn't really touched... maybe its the exhaustion. but yuan, cm and nick didn't seem to be touched either... or maybe they just weren't showing it?

after tt, we just spent forever milling round at Times where we met kum weng, looking at this Book of Ultimate Useless info... like the only word in English ending with "mt" is dreamt. and... 4 popes died while having sex. scandalous... i was just grouchy cuz of the incident above and my tiredness... in the end, we went arcade... played Bishibashi, and boy did i suck. yuan like completed his before time and played mine and completed his too... haha... k... :$ and i played gunbullet with nick... and he was being so idiotic... :( he kept shooting stuff i was trying to shoot instead of shooting his side, so a few times, i ended with too few hits and died. waste money... :( and then playing Jumbo Safari was great... i reached the last stage and almost won it... tsk, so close... :) and yuan did a good job with his DDR with such a good workout! he was so sweaty after tt... ;) still amazed with his sight reading abilities and leg eye coordination abilities... i would never be able to dance like tt. not in a million years... haha

at last i fixed my blog again... stupid angelfire deleted my account cuz i violated their copyright rules by uploading an mp3 onto their servers. stupid... :@ :@

anyway, tt means no more 'One Last Cry'... anyway, this version of yellow brick road is special... she changed changed the lyrics to thank the ones that have helped her get this far, her fans, and to her fellow constestants whom she loves as well... still wish she was in the competition. ahh well, the consolation is tt she's supposedly got a recording contract with the producer Babyface (part of Laface - TLC's label!!) but it can only be signed in sept after the AI one ends. i can wait... :)

i watched the show again at yihan's place... was still so emotional again... :S

anyway, today was quite good, though a bit tiring... played tennis in the morning... somehow the lack of sleep we suffered the previous nite... (cm, yihan and i) was telling. haha, i was chatting w cm and talking to yh on the phone, and it ended up quite late, then decided to do some other stuff b4 sleeping, so we just stopped playing when it started to rain. i think i played about 1 hour? so short... :(

ate pizza for lunch, then played about 4 hours of german bridge. gosh... tiring mentally. i just stopped thinking after like 2.5 hours?? haha... brain was too tired. it was exciting stuff though. the first game, cm manged to scored 9 squared points in one round, and i thot we were done since i was trailing like by 70 pts or sth... but on the final round of tt game, i scored 11 squared of pts and beat him. haha... k, he sort of did the same to me the next game... and the next one i think yihan won, and i actually ended up with a negative score. it was absolutely horrid. think my brain just stopped working altogether. then the 4th game... haha, i decided to be mean at the end since i was leading. i just anyhow win, not trying to stick to my bid, so tt no one can make his bid i would just win cuz i've the most pts anyway. haha, its easier to do tt then to plan my steps out for 17 cards... ;) final one, yh won... was a close one... :P anyway, think its very fun! :)

kk, went to eat dinner with my family after tt... had some steamboat buffet thing... was nice, esp the deserts... yummy! :)
bought the elephunk album... i'm not so sure i'm feeling the music inside though... its just... i dunno, maybe if i listen a few more times. arghh, i should stop buying CDs, i've no more pouches to contain them, and goodness knows how much i've spent... :S

b4 i spent eons fixing my blog, played WCIII with nick... think it was v fun... am finally attaining some of my micromanagement skills back at last... :) ok, its late, nite guys! :)

One Last Cry

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to some one else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feelings were gone...
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do

But I've one last cry
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you out of mind for the very last time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down to one last cry........... :'(

- Camille Velasco

I was watching the show... and I cried... never done tt watching any show b4... this is a first. not sure what it is, but she just strikes a chord with my heart... i really feel for her, am mesmerized by her voice. the way she dedicated her song to the audience, changing the lyrics... and the tears and embraces. and she's the only contestant tt went out tt reduced other contestants to tears... jasmine, fantasia and diana and dunno who else were all in tears. she's something special.

Bye Camille... I wish u all the best... and may your dream to sing come true one day...

disappointing American Idol performance. Half the pple couldn't even hit their notes, and one was just completely off like last week. What in the world is John Stevens still doing in the competition???! Just unbelievable... Now, i'm quite certain either Fantasia or George would win this competition... They've just been so consistent, they've the vocals, the style and the personailty. Jasmine, jon, camille, diana were quite pitchy. But Jasmine chose a hard song, i song i really like, but compared to the Elton John live version i have... its quite a big difference, but i think her 2nd best performance, not bad. Jon, camille and diana were just disappointing - though i suspect diana is sick. Latoya was good too... Not really sure about my guess, but i think Jennifer will go this week. She's just not popular enough. Second in line might be Diana...

argghhh... am having such a f*cked up day. i'm just absolutely feeling like crap. and i think i must have stepped on many many pple's toes today the way i've been behaving. ah whatever, screw them.

what the hell is wrong with me?? i dunno... haha, i'm such a screwed up piece of shit.

so busy the past few days... been busy fiddling with my new phone... its darn good. i love it so much... the screen is so clear, i just can't help staring at it... and the awesome amt of memory makes it so great for uploading tonnes of pix into. love the mp3 player, now i can listen to nice songs on my phone without worry... and hehe, the camera and video is good for a mischevious person like moi... ;) and in case some people were wondering, the 6230 is the phone i meant to get, not the 6220. so i didn't just buy a phone for 2 days and decide to change again... :P

hmmmm, played tennis yesterday and today... both days weren't very good... forehand's been a wreck... i've no idea why either. i'm quite puzzled... coach wasn't happy... and cm was just being a pest making me train my 2.4 by making me run up to his drop shots... grrrr... oh and we had to climb through tt tiny hole in the fence to get to the courts... sorry yuan, u wouldn't be able to join us... ;)

and yesterday, after sch, shan n i went to buy aaron his bday present... not bad, i managed to think of some useful things to buy for him... :) but i spent lotsa money on food, and some on myself too... so broke. i've almost cut my pocket money for this week by 3/4... argghhh. must start collecting money pple owe me... hahaha.

anyway, some pple in class are beginning to annoy me with their enormous mouths and even larger egos. they act like they're geniuses and are damn smart... come on, produce some results and say something intelligent other than 'this is so easy' blah blah... then maybe i and other pple would be convinced. and if u really think u're smart, u'd be confident enough to know it, and not bother trying to convince everyone else. it just gets on my nerves. there are 2 of them in class. and are definitely other pple in class i would think are smarter... by a long way than them... though i highly doubt they'd believe it. they're just so deluded, living in their own world where they're the best. hopefully someone would put them back in their place and shut their gaping traps up.

absolutely tiring day yesterday... woke up at 8, and went for training... sat there listening to interviewees again. so tired of that... then watched nick and some others fence again. maybe i should stay one day... but right now, i just can't, cuz there's no time and i'm not ready... :( after tt went with the fencers for lunch at some jap restaurant... its very cheap... :) haha...

tried to look for a bday present at city link, but ended up not buying anything. at least nick got a book, so the trip wasn't wasted. i looked round, sat there and thought for sometime, then realised i was supposed to be at yh's place already... and so i just decided to go. and a sudden wave of tiredness also washed over me, i just couldn't look for the present anymore.

on the train to bishan, i was highly irritated... haha. stupid pple wun go the middle of the train as usual, and just kept squishing me, just like from clementi to cityhall. bah. then when i exited the train station got bumped into dunno how many times. maybe i'm just damn lousy at walking...

k, tennis... haha... was fine at first, then my legs just suddenly felt so weak and i was just so tired. couldn't play/concentrate. i think i just made error after error at the last part of the doubles match. it was the same for singles, i'd play 3 bad points, then win 5 pts in a row to win the game, lose the next 7, win the nice 5... etc... just crap. no surprise i lost both, but they were quite close, 7-5 for doubles and 7-6(2) for singles. haha... i couldn't even be pissed like usual cuz i was just too tired.

we managed to play cranium... and finish b4 i had to leave! cm and i won... all thanks to my amazing die rolling skills... ;) we skipped so many sections of the board... but credit must also go to cm's amazing knowledge. this qn, which is the only band to have their grammy revoked? and cm knew it was milli vanilli (sp?)... and he actually told me abt it last year i think... haha... well done! :) and when yuan and yh saw the qn, they were like sniggering thinking we couldn't answer it... but we got it! :D yayay!!

after tt, i rushed home, ok, my parent's picked me up... then, i showered changed, rushed to the train station towards cityhall. went to icihban for jap food again... well aaron wanted it? we just ate lots and lots. i've never seen claire eat so much b4!! :P and hs, skinny as she is, ate lots to... the sashimi sucked though... but i must admit tt the grilled stuff was excellent... :) but generally it was quite good, and freaking ex. felt so bad...

then, we went to the chocolate bar. been wanting to go there... it was great!! the yummy chocolate, marshmellows, strawberrys and banana. somehow i'd banana plus chocolates 3 times yesterday... quite odd. it was like coating the banna slices with rich dark chocolate was so yummy... and seeing the chocolate dripping all over the strawberries... wow...

took lotsa pix tt day... :P haha, hope they turn out fine... last stop was embargo... was so a pub? is tt what u call it? haha... the atmosphere was quite nice... nice cushions and there were even soccer matches... but the smokers were such a put off. the drinks were how ex... shall not go again... :S hmmmm, it was quite nice though... but then, whenever i drink i turn so red even though i'm not drunk. so we all drank just a glass, and no one got drunk - duh. k, claire's cup was so tiny, like this mini glass, but apparently its supposed to be super potent... hmmm, she must hold her stuff well... :)

when i went home, it was so late... like almost 1, i was so tired, i fell asleep after a shower. so much work to do now... ;) stupid chem S... haha

ack... one day after i get the 6220... the 6230 appears to have came out... k, i dun think i should bug my parents to buy it this month though... spending too much. besides, i've a feeling i didn't do all tt well for my common tests... :S the keypad of the 6220 sucks though, can never get used to it...

anyway, today was so slack!! haha... had such a long lunch break where wp, aaron, mich and i went to crystal jade to have dim sum. k, tt was seriously spending too much $$... :S haha... cabbed and spent so much on everything... mustn't do this too often... :(

anyway, inge wasn't here for long for bio pract. had so much fun as reason! :) we had this massive potato fight. k, i kinda started it, then we just threw potato pieaces everywhere. mag provided lotsa ammo for me... ;) but poor lab techs... gonna have some problems cleaning up... :P and we gotta leave almost an hour earlier! woohoo! :)

somehow my yahoo mail account got annulled...now i can't log into my yahoogroups. nonsense la... waiting for my email to be verified now. taking forever...

played more WC3 today... kinda sucked cuz i've just become so lousy and kept losing... bah... but am gonna enjoy myself tmr... :)


anyway, camile is playing on the left. this is the reason why i love her. maybe now, more pple will hear what i hear.

yesterday nite, i d/l many janet vids... her many interviews she conducted, tv appearances and live performances in a bid to promote her album. its great... her live performances were great, interviews too! :) so glad for her. she brushed aside many irritating qns abt the superbowl, was great! and her fans were so supportive, chanting, 'No More Superbowl' and 'Album, album' when they saw tt she was distressed w some qns. anyway, i didn't sleep much last nite cuz i was watch... so tired now.

the day was a rough one. tired, and kinda not feeling too good, i was just darn anti-social the whole day, and just wanted some peace. but finally, after school, i gradually got better. yeah, thank u... stayed w me for a while and tried to cheer me up, more than once too... :) am grateful, guess it was rite i treated u in the end...

anyway, after i got home, my dad gave me a new phone, been fiddling round w it, creating many nice wallpapers and such, in the midst of a discussion with cm abt american idol. anyway, will be changing the songs on the right periodically, so watch tt space! dun u think fantasia is amazing??! tt was live btw... and camile's as good, believe me.

it seems like i'm getting better at predicting AMI results. predicted tt amy would go out, and camile wun be in the bottom 3... and hey, i was rite... so happy. anyway, i love this show! :) woohoo!!